Haircut, Malls and Portals

Another bizarre dream. I thought this was a distant memory but it seems things were quite different.

I found myself in a mall somehow similar to Ayala Mall (a mall here in the Philippines). And was looking for a haircut.

Copyright: Foto Mikael Olsson

I went to the salon where I used to get it done. I felt I’ve been coming here for quite sometime. I approached a woman barber and she asked me what I wanted. I asked if I wanted a haircut. She looked at me and asked me if this was my first time visiting the store. I answered No. She pulled a thick pile of papers and looked for my name. She said “Your name was not in the list”. I was confused since I’ve been going here for quite sometime already to get my hair done. So I insisted “You can still give me a haircut right?”. She looked at me and said “Of course, sir.”. She grabbed a pen and started right my initials – CL778. I don’t know what those numbers mean but it did not bother me.

When we were going to the woman’s barber chair, I noticed the shop was so neat and organized. I did not notice this before. And it seems the majority of the barbers are female. I knew that before this was an all male barber shop. But it seems the management added women in their workforce.

As I got myself ready in her chair, she got a transparent film and placed it in front of me and she exclaimed, “Oh no, this is not good”. “Why” I asked. “Well, I cannot give you a haircut. None from this shop can. There were some terrible mistakes done on your hair and we cannot fix it. More like, we won’t fix it. You should look for “THIS” store.” For some reason, I knew what “THIS” store she was referring to. 

I got up and made my way out of the barbershop while everyone was looking at me like I had something on my face, “Well I think it’s my hair”, I told myself. My goal in mind is to go to that other barbershop to finally get my haircut.

As I looked around, I noticed a mall store with a door outside. It did not bother me though since some mall stores have mall exits. So I went inside the store and exited through their door. Luckily it led me to another mall outside. So I hurriedly went inside and looked for that store. However, the mall was too crowded by people – more like students from nearby schools. I got frustrated so I went outside and decided to go home.

A group of people who seemed to know me called me and asked “Hey Charles! Woah You’re here. Did you buy anything?” asked one girl. “No, the place is too crowded. So I decided to go home”, I answered. “A typical you, Charles”, said another girl and laughed. I seemed to know them. “We are also going home and going to the bus terminal”, she added. One of the girls held my arm and said, “Let’s go near the exit of the terminal. We can easily ride the bus from there”. So I went with her.

As we waited at the exit of the terminal, many buses passed by but not en route to my place. I got frustrated waiting and said “I should have not come here”. The girl heard me and asked me where I was before coming to this mall. I told her I came out from a mall. She looked confused. “What do you mean you left that mall and ended in this mall? This mall and that mall are not connected. You still have to ride a bus to get here like it’s a long trip. So what you are saying doesn’t make sense to me”. “Hmm but that’s how I got here.” I explained. Maybe it might be a portal which only I can see or use, I thought. And changed the topic.

“Hey this mall is closer to our previous school right? UP.” I said. The girl looked at me with bewilderment, ” What school? UP? I don’t know that school. We graduated from Oxford International.”. She took a step back and said “Who Are You?”

And then I woke up.

Space and Reincarnation

This is how my dream is so vivid..

[Dream]

A few millennia from now, a fraction of the human population will be born and will live in a space city.
I will be born in that era.

With me is my mother, 3 other people who are my friends but which I already considered as family. We lived in a small section of the space city. But it is close to the main part of the city. We owned a spaceship which I think has been used as the main form of transportation within the space city. I noticed a commotion outside and everyone in the space city where frantically getting on their spaceships. I asked my mom what is happening but everyone including her where busy getting things ready. She asked all of us to run to the exit door connected to our Spaceship.

On the way to the exit door, I noticed a man standing staring at the abyss of space outside. I stopped and tried to talk to him. He did not move. He was wearing a space city staff uniform. My mom stormed and shouted “These people were the reason why we are in this miss”. The man did not move. She pulled me and we started running to the exit door.

Somehow, the whole city was shaking and breaking. There was chaos.

When then reached to our spaceship, we strapped on our seat. My mom piloted the ship but the gravitational pull from something is making it hard for us to move away. As I looked outside, I saw a huge black hole expanding. Sucking everything in within its reach.

We can no longer escape. My mom shouted to me, “Hope we meet again son”. And everyone was crying . But I was not because I knew we all meet again. As each one bid their farewell, we saw our last moments as being stretched so thinly that we all blacked out to oblivion.

Fast forward…

I woke up with all the memories in the past and found myself eating in some restaurant and was sitting with a small thing (some kind of baby/child ). But everyone was like weird looking, they all no longer have human like faces. They were like eating, laughing and talking inside the restaurant. I kept speaking in English but everyone can’t seemed to understand.

This is the closest resemblance to how I and everyone looked like.

From the distant, I saw 3 other “people” who looked weird but somehow I felt the closeness. And I told myself, “I knew them”. And then I recalled the people I was with in that space city who died with me; my mom and two of my old friends. And the baby I was with is also one my friends.

And then the waitress shouted to me, “He speaks human”. A word that made everyone in the restaurant froze. Everyone stopped and looked at me. I don’t know why. Ignoring the awkward atmosphere, I tried calling those 3 people from the distance by their names but they were puzzled and felt attacked. I stopped and looked at the child I was with and said “Am I the only one who remembers?”

[End of Dream]
#dreamstory #dreamfantasy

Me at 31

I forgot when I started writing an article dedicated to myself to somehow celebrate the day I was born.
This is more like a summary of everything from the year passed.
If you want to be entertained, you are welcome to read.
But I encourage you to keep your opinions to yourself. Just enjoy or ignore 🙂

So here goes..

Today is my 31st Birthday.
I am NOT married yet. Although I have a few friends who just got married this year esp one of my closest friend in college.
I am STILL SINGLE. I intentionally highlighted that part ^^. Still looking for my SIGNIFICANT OTHER. And yes, I am 31 yrs. old.
I have NOT fathered any kids yet ( I did hope so .. joke )

So my 2017 was actually a tough journey.
I started the year with a new chapter in my career.
And it was my first time staying a few islands away from home for months.
New place. No relatives. Few people I know of.
It was truly a blessing that I found a good place to stay.

Career was very challenging as well.
I could have not have made it through if I didn’t have the support from my family and my friends (to mention: Geya, Miss Clare, Simon, Nara, Razel, the rest of HOTS team, and Cookie Team in Nokia and etc).
I am blessed to have that emotional and intellectual support from these guys and girls ^^.
I battled it out with frustrations, stress, negativity and all other odds for the past months.
I admit I almost packed up and walk away. But I did not.
I just took another leap of faith.
And kept hoping that things will turned out okay.
And so it did turn out okay. And I am thankful that all went well.

I learned a lot from myself and from people I came to know this year.
I am very grateful to be surround with amazing and challenging people.
Knowing that the limit of one’s capability to learn is one’s willingness and desire to learn.

Aging is inevitable because it is part of life.
As we all age, some of us just grow old but never grow up.
I hope to continue growing in wisdom and learn more things in life.

I extend my greatest thanks to all the people that has been part of 2017.
It is an awesome year for me with you guys with it!

If I had to wish one thing, I hope I could live long enough so I could share more wonderful memories with the people I love (and like ^^).

Merry Christmas Everyone!

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Goodbye Till We Meet Again

I picked up the keys. I did not look back. I would have wanted to see you one last time. But I did not. I might find myself on my knees in front of you asking you to reconsider. You made your choice and I made mine. I hope you will not think those years we had together was a waste. Those smiles and those laughter we both shared will always be in my heart.

As I open this door and step out of your room, I am stepping out of your life forever. I pray we both will have good future though now as strangers. I hope next time we meet I hope to see your smile again. And hopefully, I could smile back without harboring ill feelings towards you. It might take time but it will come.

Sad. But at least, for those years together, I had the best time of my life with you. And now, it will all be in the past.

Goodbye.

Zombies Cant Be Real

I just wanted to share a very short talk I had with a fitness trainer  yesterday:

Trainer: Totoo kaya yung mga zombies? (Are zombies real?)

Me (in mind) :
The fictional concept surrounding the zombie idea is just absurd. I mean rotten body but moving around like marathon runners. Even if the concept was real, disposing them is very easy. I just dont get the people in the zombie movie why they are having hard time dealing them. I mean they can just be put into fire because of the current state of the body. And they are very much predictable. Their population in every movie are stupendous! I mean really? And again, the body are rotten. So how come no one can smell them like meters away? And without doing anything, they can still die on their own cause again they are decomposing.
 
Me (in actual conversation):
Nope, they can’t be real. I do believe vampires and werewolves are close to reality. Just saying.
 
Trainer: Oo nga. Mukhang totoo sila. I mean, meron naman talagang mga aswang. (Yeah , I think they are real. I mean aswang do exist)
Me: Yeah. Zombies. Phew!. Who would be believe that?

Be with You

Dearest Love,

For most of the time , we’ve never been a perfect couple;
We fight a lot and put our relationship into trouble.
But even though the odds and struggles seemed like forever,
I am just glad we made it through and never gave up on each other.

I ain’t the romantic type but you knew how much I love you,
I ain’t good with dates but I wont forget the day I first kissed you.
I don’t have much wealth to offer but I could share to you what I have,
And romantically, you’re the only person I ever really loved.

I can’t thank you enough for being part of my life,
And I hope we always make it through all odds and strife.
I know we’ve had it rough cause this is the first time we’re apart,
However, listen to these last lines for this is from my heart.

Endless talks over the laptop and on the phone,
You always remind me I am not alone.
You’re like a breath of fresh air in my mornings,
And a cozy warm bed in my evenings.

I long to hold your hand every single day,
Spending a whole day with you is something I solemnly pray.
My memories with you always makes me smile,
And I hope our love goes beyond the distance in miles.

Though this letter is short and simple,
I hope I get across my message of love to you,
Even though this world has millions of people,
It doesn’t matter cause I’d still want to be with you.

I love you always,
Charles

@copyright 2017 charles anthony lerasan

Sing Movie Review: Do What You Love To Do

Here’s another movie that keeps reminding us that we should pursue our dreams and not be hindered by fear. This movie showed in anthromorphic way that each animals of different walks of life chased their dreams or face their fears or adversaries.

We have a gorilla that want to follow a path different from what his father want him to be. A mom who amidst her busy life as a mother of tons of kids and a wife wants to pursue her life long passion of singing. A hedgehog who was being underestimated by her boyfriend. An elephant who have stage fright but with an outstanding vocals (well, I am no vocal coach or something, but she sure gives me “good” creeps when she sings). And a koala who believed that these animals can be the best animal they can be.

So what is my take away in this movie:

  1. Not all we want to do or even our goals can be achieve like it’s just a walk in the park. Most of the times we will find ourselves at a crossroad where we do a self-check if have that strong determination on achieving our goals.
  2. Not doing it now doesn’t mean you will never be able to do it like the mother in the movie. Maybe you had put on hold on that dream/goal because of some priority. But as the movie shows you will soon have that time when you can have it. So keep practicing or keep the fire burning until it happens. And when that time comes, grab it and don’t hold back.
  3. Not everyone will be happy about it. Like the gorilla and the hedgehog, we wont have always the approval from everyone. But as the movie suggests if it makes you happy and you are not hurting anyone, do it. Don’t be hold be back. Sooner or later those people will come around esp those people you loved.
  4. As the old “cliche” goes, if there’s a will, there’s a way. It means no matter what hinders you along the way, if you really want it or love it, you can always find a way.
  5. And lastly,

    Do what you love to do.

Our limitations is not actually our abilities or skills but our mindset. If we focus our mind, time, skills and resources, we can achieve anything. Also we have those people we love and love us who will be there to support us in whatever we want to do. Tap some confidence and strength from them if you have to.

Overall, the movie was a feel-good movie that you can watch with friends and family over pizza/popcorn.

@copyright 2017. Charles Anthony Lerasan

Arrival Movie Reflection: To See Beyond

If you knew your life from start to finish, will you change it?
Maybe I wont.
If you will foresee pain, you will feel it twice when it happens.
If you will foresee happiness, you will cherish it more at that very moment.
 
I don’t have that gift nor the power, but if I did;
I would wish not to have it.
Cause I’d rather..
.. let the future unfold in front of me.
.. let myself be surprise of the things in store for me.
.. feel pain when it comes.
.. treat each moments as if it will be the last
It’s already challenging for me to live day by day.
And the additional details of knowing the future will put me into more stress.
And that is no fun at all.
@copyright2017 Charles Anthony Lerasan

Teach Not Read

When I was a trainer, I usually memorize everything in my slides. I don’t want any thing written on it that I am not aware of. I want to appear to my students confident on my topic. I don’t want to be caught off guard during discussion wherein I cannot explain or answer what is written on my slide. It is a teaching disaster!

So, when I become I trainee myself, I really can’t stand trainers who just read their slides. Slides are just there for you to guide yourself in the discussion not for you to read in front of your students. If you start reading them aloud to your students, you are just lowering yourself as the same level with them. And that’s not good. Students should feel they can rely on you on the topics and not be worried that you don’t know the topic as well.

One rule of thumb I learned when I was a trainer, “maintain eye contact to your students”. Or at least, you should be looking at your students most of the time than your slides. Looking at them will give you an idea of your students’ state while you were teaching. Are they bored? Are they listening? Am I making sense? I always do this when I am training.

When I teach them about a topic, I will look at them for 2-3 secs. Then I will get a pretty good idea if they understood me or not. If they did not understand, I will go over it again or I will have them ask me questions before I proceed or I will ask them questions. Asking them questions will guide me what part of the topic was not clear to them.

I will not “read” the whole slide, and then ask “do you have any questions?”. Well, of course, they wont have questions, they just read the whole slide.

Knowing your students’ state while you are teaching will alert you that you need to change something. This is will  be an improvement action to you as a trainer.

That’s why teaching is a two-way learning, your students learn from you and you learn from them as well.

So when you teach, please don’t read. Or at least, minimize reading.

@copyright 2017. Charles Anthony Lerasan

 

The Untold Story About Her

I will start this article by saying that all you will about to read happened in a dream.

“A dream” I kept telling that to myself for the past 5 years I guess. But up until this moment, it can still make me cry like how I cried about her on the first time it happened. I could not remember the whole dream sequence. I can only recall a fragment of it. I know that dreams are sometimes fragment of past events that we had experience. But I cant remember any past events with her. And to make things worst, I cant remember her face.

I am writing this now cause I dont know how long will I be able to snap out of it. And a part of me hopes that if she is somewhere out there, she finds this article.

So the dream started like this..

It was a very nice day in some kind of a school cause we were all wearing uniform. She grabbed me by the hand and smiled at me. She said “Let’s go”. There was sweetness on her tone that made me smile as well. She had a very beautiful smile. She also had  long hair. She about a few inches taller than me. But I didnt mind. That certain moment I knew that I really liked her. I really enjoyed her company at that time. While we were chatting with friends something came up that we had to run away. Someone chased us and we were both frightened. I hold her hand tight while we made our way to amaze of buildings. She looked at me and smiled. But I could tell she was worried. So to calm her I hugged her and told her that everything will be alright. We went on top of the highest building, I guess we were hoping that a help will come. But there was no one. Then suddenly darkness started to engulf the whole area. And it slowly crept up to where we are. I embraced her and reassured her that someone will help us. She looked at me. And now I could see tears in her eyes. “Don’t cry. I will be here. I wont leave you. We’ll fight this together”, I assured her. I was scared but I needed to be strong for her. I never been this brave for someone. At that moment, I wanted to protect her. I didn’t want to lose her.

She smiled and hugged me. Then suddenly she kissed me. They say that true love’s kiss will give you butterfly in the stomach. At that moment, I did have them. And my heart was about to explode at that moment. Like I want to shout that world, I love her. But then she said something to me. I can’t remember what it was. Then suddenly I found myself being pulled away from her. I struggled. I wanted to get out. I wanted to be with her. I held her hand so tight. She looked at me and smiled. Then she let go. I shouted “No. Please, no. Please I love you. Please I wanted to be with you.” I kept shouting  and tried to break free. But it was no use. I was getting far and far away from her. She looked at me with a sad face. And then the darkness engulfed her.

I woke up crying. And part of me died with that dream. Some part of me was convince, she was real. And that she did exist and it all did happened.

In that dream, she made me feel something I never felt before. I dont know if it was love. But if it’s not love, I dont know what it is.

Remembering that dream still makes me sad and sometimes I still end up crying. Because I lost her, the person I truly loved.

I write for her in poems, in short stories or in quotes hoping that those simple things will reach her.

A part of me is hoping that we will meet some day in this reality and be together.

And so I wait for that time comes. Until then, I will write till I can write no more about her and about that feeling she made me feel.

@Copyright 2017